about me!!

welcome to my world ⊹ ࣪ ˖ filled with pink, cute girls, girly aesthetics, gaming and art ♡

i often have difficulty expressing how i feel and tend to explain it in odd ways, apologies! i'm trying my best ♡

so let's get to know eachother a bit more ⊹ ࣪ ˖ ໒꒱

mentions of mental health struggles

as i've mentioned on my homepage, my name is macaron, you may call me that or macie (pronounced: mackie) i'm 20, an aquarius, and some form of gay

i enjoy a bunch of different shows, games, and media in general! it would take jillion years to explain all the things like mainly bc the moment anyone asks, my mind goes blank (╥‸╥)♡

some of my hobbies and interests include, drawing, analysing media, making headcannons about my favorite characters, playing games, and... watching my favorite streamers!! honestly sometimes whenever i'm talking about the things i enjoy it either sounds like a job application OR i'm yapping for wayy too long （´∇｀''）

most of my time is spent drawing, coding, or playing games. mainly due to my poor mental health and family situation i am unable to get a conventional job, unforunately ૮(˶╥︿╥)ა i am hoping to start designing adopts soon tho!!

as unserious as this may sound i often feel like a chud that isn't contributing to society enough and needs to work harder. my mental health takes a huge toll on me and added with my self-awareness it isn't a great combo. life is hard, but i try to get through it even if somedays i don't want to get out of bed or even take care of myself. sorry for the life dump but this is my about me page so it's expected (ᵕ — ᴗ —)

on another slightly less depressing note, identity! it has been a confusing topic most of my life. i grew up religious and that added a layer of confusion. i won't get too deep into it as it's really personal, but... even after i realized i was queer i had a hard time accepting this part of me due to my religious upbringing.

there were a lot of reasons why it took me so long but after awhile i accepted myself as bisexual !! (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) other than that.. gender is a little less confusing... sometimes.. hehe i like the idea of having no gender or being demi-girl. i think abt it less and therefore haven't really thought abt it too much.

i feel like i should apolagize for the chaos that this page is ( •̯́ ₃ •̯̀) i hope you were able to gain some insight into who i am! i kinda suck at talking about myself. this is the second time i'm rewriting this page so hopefully i sound less jumbled !! ♡

here is a couple of different pieces of media i enjoy ₊˚⊹♡

. eternal senia , lethal company , minecraft , genshin , love nikki , RE2 , fields of mistria .

. good luck charlie christmas , ponyo , waterliles ,

. yellowjackets , FMAB , kamisama kiss , seraph of the end , idolish7 , HOTD , glee ,

something important to mention

alright, what i'm about to talk about is slightly controversial to some folks. i highly suspect that i am autistic and have ADHD, also known as auDHD. autism runs in my family. i've researched(not on tiktok) about auDHD extensively and the concluison i've come to is that i am probably autistic and have ADHD. that being said, i do not have a formal diagnosis. i want one but i do not have it, unforunately. i am not a medical professional and i cannot diagnosis myself. that being said i do not judge others for self-diagnosis. when it pertains to US any medical help you may need/want is expenivse and i'll be honest, the reason i don't self-diagnosis is due to the social sitgma surrounding it and the worry that i might be inadverdently be harming someone by doing it. the MAIN reason i'm mentioning this is because i might bring up masking as i go through that on a day to day basis and have experience with it, but also i wanted to make it clear that it's something that is imprtant to me!

to me atleast, the main reason i see others self-diagnosis is for personal reasons. not to go somewhere and scream, shout, and demand people be accommodating to them. i'm sure it has happen before, however i think the majority of ppl that self-diagnosis, don't mean harm. despite that i personally chose not to self-diagnosis.

thank you for taking the time outta your day to read this, i hope i didnt bore you too much !!